Earlier on this year, I attended a book launch for the book How to be Selfish. There was an after party where the guests mingled and got to know each other. There was a mixture of fascinating people, from designers to an owner of a diamond business. Towards the end of the evening, I ended up sitting at a table with the renowned psychic Douglas Ballard. I did not ask directly for a reading; I’m always thought it was best to allow people to come to me with messages, instead of directly going out there.  He did one reading on another lady who was sitting at this table with me, and then he turned to me and made an announcement. It was something very positive – Something Big.

This year has been an interesting year for me, it began with an up – I was in “red”  – seemed to be on “fire”. Then I had a slight dip in fortunes, then an upward move again, including some excitement for the “love series”. (I’ll keep you posted for the book!)  Then a downward period ensued and I had entered the “yellow” phase: a period where activity is “low” and one has retreated inwardly. You’re probably wondering where I got the inspiration for this description. Actually, it was the TV show, Homeland. I had recently become fan, yes; maybe a bit of a late-developer but that has never stopped me before.

So, what happened during this “yellow” period, and how did I come out of it? Well, after being on an up throughout the summer, climaxing with the Paralympics final, I was hit with a bombshell. I realised that I had made a big error of judgement. This led to an orgy of emotions; mainly confusion, sadness, shock and anger. You will notice that some of these were negative emotions.  It left me without direction; I was not able to focus and I felt there was a block on things coming to me. I got so into the “yellow” period, I had not realise how I was on pause. This included the business, my creative output and love. Yes, my writing.

So what changed? I woke up one day, as you do, and thought that I had to take back control. This was from facing the doubter gremlins to the wrongdoers. But before getting to this step, I needed to re-focus, re-connect to my inner-self; some may describe this as the “-ing”, as one author Gabrielle Bernstein mentioned in her book Spirit Junkie.

In this modern world we live in today, it is so easy to become detached from our spiritual self. Some spiritual people, including healers and psychics, believe that we are born with certain “sensors” and “instincts” but we lose touch of them. But maybe that can be for another blog post.

So which phase did I enter next? The green faze where I slowly plot my revenge. This meant how I was going to come back fighting – my strategy. The purple phase will be the part where I see things through and see the positive results – the Something Big.